I’m a disciple of Jesus Christ. I’m a pastor of a church. I’m a Bible reader.
I want to discuss that latter descriptor for a few moments. If you’re ready, here are a few confessions of a Bible reader.
Confession #1: I didn’t start reading the Bible until I was 18.
The Bible was unknown mystery to me growing up. I was familiar with the stories. We had a few Bibles laying around the house. Yet, I never picked one up. Well … let me clarify that last statement. I can vividly remember picking up a Bible a handful of times in high school – but it seemed odd, unfamiliar, and distant.
That all changed when I entered a local Baptist church toward the end of my senior year of high school. It did not take me long to realize this particular group of people were singing to a God I did not know, speaking of a salvation I did not have, and loved a book I did not understand.
Confession #2: My Understanding Of The Bible Has Increased As I Have Increased My Understanding Of God.
In the early years of Bible reading I drew many conclusions that now seem childish to me. After 13 years of Bible reading my views on certain things have changed dramatically. I often ask myself, “In 13 years from now will I look back on what I believe today and think it’s childish?” After some thought my answer often is “probably not … but maybe.”
You see, I don’t agree with many conclusions I came to 13 years ago because I had a very shallow understanding of God. I came to wrong conclusion about the Bible because I did not understand the character of God. I still can’t wrap my feeble brain around the true character of God – but I understand God more now than I did 13 years ago.
The more I look to Jesus, the more I see how Jesus views the world, the more that I deny myself, take up my cross daily, and follow Jesus – the more I understand God.
CONFESSION #3: I Still Have A Long Way To Go.
I spend a significant portion of each day studying the Bible because I have a passion for God. Why? I’m powerless without him. I’m hopeless without him.
No matter how many Bible studies I lead, no matter how many sermons I preach, no matter how many discipleship meetings I attend, I will never master the Word of God.
It must always master me.